01 January 2009
New Year Nothings
I am 42 days smoke-free.
I am proud of this accomplishment.
And also, today, beginning to feel the forest around me. The cool dark silence in the heart of it where I am the last living person.
And I am craving a cigarette. I'm thinking it wouldn't hurt to reward myself.
The remedy for this risky moment would be a hot-out-of-the-oven brownie but my oven doesn't work.
There is nothing I can do about this from my present vantage point: sitting in pajamas at my desk. I'm going to get dressed, get on my bicycle and go see what the world has to offer.
posted at 1:58 PM