20 October 2010

Grand Opening


I have cleared what I viewed as the First Hurdle in the Landmark Effectiveness Seminar: I have created an intention.

My intention is to be visible in the World as a committed, working artist.

It's true -- I'm feeling "tah-dah" and invigorated and clear in mind like I'm standing on top of a mountain. It took a couple of weeks of drafting to come up with this stated intention. It started with something like "I will find or create a stream of gainful employment for myself" and evolved to the statement above. The process was provocative and the result is a statement that feels graceful and powerful to me.

And also

I am scared shit-less when I read it. Who am I kidding? How am I supposed to transform from a wannabe poser to a bonafied artist?

I am terrified, actually because it feels like my last stand. Like if I don't get my act together now, I might as well find a grenade to sit on.

I know this is not my last stand. Intellectually. I only feel like this is my last stand. I consider whether my fear is evidence that my intention is just more inauthenticity: me blowing smoke up my ass.

What is most significant to me, what I've decided to "go with," is the heightened power, freedom, strength, clarity, enthusiasm, willingness and confidence I feel when I say, aloud,

My intention is to be visible in the World as a committed, working artist.

Also significant, everyone who's heard my intention says they are, in the words of Landmark, "touched, moved and inspired" by it.

Yeah, I think I'll go with this.

4 comments:

  1. Oh, my Friend! I second everyone's reaction..... I'm touched, moved, & inspired. Remember: an Artist is someone who produces art. A poser is someone who calls themselves an artist.... but doesn't produce. You're most definatley the former, whatEVER you call yourself! LOVE.

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  2. Poser? what poser? I've always known you as an artist. One I am inspired and amazed by. Enjoy the process of revealing your true self.

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  3. Ditto, but let me add that it would certainly be your last stand should you sit on a grenade. I respectfully ask that, whatever the evolution of your intention turns out to be, you refrain from grenades. Love you too much for that!

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  4. Please DO go with it.

    dfc

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