On a short walk around the neighborhood, I came upon a dead raccoon. My reactions as near as I can recall (not in chronological order) were:
- Gasp. Eyes open a little wider and immediately look away.
- Rapid data collection during the gaze: mouth open, eyes closed, blood in mouth, a few teeth visible, four legs...
- Stomach lurch.
- Low-grade confusion. Some fear.
It was the blood in the mouth. Yes, I'm sure: it was the blood in the mouth that triggered mental activity, generating mostly unconscious gruesome thinking ----> creating Fear.
I've been mostly working in the staring-at-sky-through-trees and scribbling-in-an-ever-present-notebook modes so far. This weekend, I've opened a couple times and shared my ideas with another person. (I'm 'out of town' and there's been more social activity than usual.) It's a little like disrobing ... Sometimes, I wish I had not shared.
wonder why I chose to share.
My life situation includes some very rocky fields and drippy caverns right now. The Power of Now teachings are like finely honed, master tools in my hands.
Or a carefully etched map whose finer details are gradually becoming visible to me.
This afternoon Tolle will lead a mediation online. I went to the website and registered to participate. I'm curious to see how this is done.
I was also ... searching for a word... "hungry" comes closest. "Hungry" to meet others whose lives have been transformed and illuminated by PON wisdom.
Yes, ego is a thread in the hunger. Ego jockeying to maintain identity and a place at the table. Who else is reading the teachings, practicing presence? Am I doing it right? Where is the rest of the tribe?
"Being" is a complex idea that exists as a persistent immutable truth. It embraces, permeates and sustains
transparencies and opacities
all of these ideas occur against the backdrop
9 minutes till the web-meditation. Time to queue up.